cry it all out

so i guess i'm back to blogger now? tumblr just got way too addicting for me. i deleted my entire tumblr account because i would literally refresh it every two seconds mindlessly~

this time is a fresh start. i'm going to have this blog as a more private place for me to post my thoughts ;; like sally's blog. i think sally's blog is my inspiration whOOPS it's just so perf

lately i've been crying and being tired and being really stressed; i've probably broke down six times in the past three days, yep. piano is slowly killing me.
honestly i just want to sit in my bed and eat boxes of tagalong cookies.

i regret not going to church retreat TT_TT ok so to be quite honest 90% of the reason i didn't go with lilian is because of stress. i just wanted to have an entire week of doing absolutely nothing, but instead it turned into a week of stress and crying and my dad yelling at me and eating no vegetables. /kill me now lilian/ gomen gomen gomen

i made a memory jar for 2014 and when i get sad (which is way too much lately) i just look at the little things i wrote on the folded up post its and the polaroid pictures i took. i'm a horribly nostalgic person jesus chRIST

also im probably the most antisocial social person ever. talking to people makes me really happy but i'll never initiate the conversation. /sob